This picture was from our wedding day, August 27, 1994. Look at that hair, those puffy sleeves, the.... love. Do you know how in love with Todd I was? It is a love so deep it is hard to put into words. He was my life, my best friend, the person I wanted to share … Continue reading The Voice
I have lists of things I need to get done and when I get to cross things off, it feels good! I love crossing things off a list. It makes me feel like I'm getting things accomplished. Being Productive. Sometimes I'll even do something that I forgot to put on my list. Once I realize … Continue reading Lists
Tomorrow morning I will participate in a 40 mile bike ride to honor Todd. This is a fundraiser for the Cancer Center at one of the local hospitals here. One where Todd received excellent care last February. This is not going to be easy because I have not gotten on my bike in many, … Continue reading Team Todd Rides
Yesterday was one of those good days. Oh, I'm so thankful for that. What made it a good day? Hmmmm.... well I felt like I accomplished things. I didn't feel the oppressive grief I typically feel. I felt like "I got this." So I reveled in it. Because not every day is like that.
I find myself constantly getting caught off guard by the little things. I feel punched in the gut with grief and am overcome with sobbing. The memories that are in every nook and cranny of this house, our room, my car, this town, our church, on the radio and on television. A friend mentioned that … Continue reading Blue Jeans
The other day I had a doctor's appointment. You know one of those well visits no female ever wants to go to. I had been putting it off because I was busy taking care of Todd. But they required me to come in if they were to refill a routine medication. So I couldn't put … Continue reading The Unexpected
How am I doing? That's the question I get ask on an almost daily basis. My friends and family ask because they love me and care about me, but the answer is so complicated. Minute by minute and hour by hour things can change. It's so incredibly complicated to answer. There are good days where … Continue reading “OK”