So how was the trip? I've been asked this many times since I got back late Friday night. Honestly, I'm not sure how to answer that because although it was beautiful and relaxing and enjoyable, it was also weird and lonely. I got there around 9pm Monday evening and pulled up to valet because I … Continue reading Beautifully Weird

The beach is my happy place. So are the mountains. I'm always torn because I love both. Todd preferred the mountains but we had some magical times at the beach with and without the kids. Over the last few months, I have been encouraged to take time for myself. To take care of myself. It's … Continue reading The Beach

I have lists of things I need to get done and when I get to cross things off, it feels good!  I love crossing things off a list. It makes me feel like I'm getting things accomplished. Being Productive. Sometimes I'll even do something that I forgot to put on my list. Once I realize … Continue reading Lists

  Tomorrow morning I will participate in a 40 mile bike ride to honor Todd. This is a fundraiser for the Cancer Center at one of the local hospitals here. One where Todd received excellent care last February. This is not going to be easy because I have not gotten on my bike in many, … Continue reading Team Todd Rides

Yesterday was one of those good days. Oh, I'm so thankful for that. What made it a good day? Hmmmm.... well I felt like I accomplished things. I didn't feel the oppressive grief I typically feel. I felt like "I got this."  So I reveled in it. Because not every day is like that. 

I find myself constantly getting caught off guard by the little things. I feel punched in the gut with grief and am overcome with sobbing. The memories that are in every nook and cranny of this house, our room, my car, this town, our church, on the radio and on television. A friend mentioned that … Continue reading Blue Jeans

How am I doing? That's the question I get ask on an almost daily basis. My friends and family ask because they love me and care about me, but the answer is so complicated. Minute by minute and hour by hour things can change. It's so incredibly complicated to answer. There are good days where … Continue reading “OK”