Today would have been our 23rd wedding anniversary and we would have been together for 27 years. That’s a long time. We would have discussed how we wouldn’t get each other anything and he would have had bought meflowers and a gift anyway because he “just couldn’t not buy me a gift.” We probably would have planned to go to dinner somewhere or maybe even taken a weekend to celebrate together.
So I’m feeling sad that he isn’t here to celebrate together. I’m heartbroken that there will be no more anniversaries together. It’s not the way it should have been.
I am also feeling thankful. Thankful that we had a marriage that was so beautiful that it hurts this bad to not have it anymore. I’m thankful for the love we shared and the memories we made. I’m thankful for the life we worked hard to build and the children we created.
My heart hurts with an intensity that is hard to put into wordsbut I am also so incredibly thankful. It’s a strange feeling. But mostly I just miss him.
Happy anniversary honey! I love you! ❤️