23 Years

Today would have been our 23rd wedding anniversary and we would have been together for 27 years. That’s a long time. We would have discussed how we wouldn’t get each other anything and he would have had bought me flowers and a gift anyway because he “just couldn’t not buy me a gift.” We probably would have planned to go to dinner somewhere or maybe even taken a weekend to celebrate together.

So I’m feeling sad that he isn’t here to celebrate together. I’m heartbroken that there will be no more anniversaries together. It’s not the way it should have been.

I am also feeling thankful. Thankful that we had a marriage that was so beautiful that it hurts this bad to not have it anymore. I’m thankful for the love we shared and the memories we made. I’m thankful for the life we worked hard to build and the children we created. 

Our engagement picture- look at all that hair!

My heart hurts with an intensity that is hard to put into words but I am also so incredibly thankful. It’s a strange feeling. But mostly I just miss him. 

Happy anniversary honey! I love you! ❤️

10 thoughts on “23 Years

  1. We are thinking of you. Todd was such a wonderful person in every way I known you miss him. I’m so sorry for your loss but so happy for all your wonderful memories. You were such a beautiful couple and family . My heart bleeds for your pain. Remember we all love you and yours. Love Uncle Bob and Donna Kay

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  2. Sweet sister in Christ – I know that that sweet husband is looking down on you and your family. I continue to pray for you and your sweet children. I wish I could take away the pain. Your love will never go away. Todd loved you more than you could ever imagine. When he talked of you and your children, he had that big smile and such positive words. He made me smile even when I was down and I knew that was was delivering that message from God. Always upbeat even when he may have not really been feeling that way. He is an example to each of us to stay positive (I won’t say was) and when I’m feeling down, i start to smile cause that what he would make me do. Hugs and prayers – 🙏🏻😘🙏🏻😘🙏🏻

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    • Sweet sister in Christ – I know that that sweet husband is looking down on you and your family. I continue to pray for you and your sweet children. I wish I could take away the pain. Your love will never go away. Todd loved you more than you could ever imagine. When he talked of you and your children, he had that big smile and such positive words. He made me smile even when I was down and I knew that was was delivering that message from God. Always upbeat even when he may have not really been feeling that way. He is an example to each of us to stay positive (I won’t say was) and when I’m feeling down, i start to smile cause that what he would make me do. Hugs and prayers – 🙏🏻😘🙏🏻😘🙏🏻

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  3. Awww, Jennifer. Praying for your heart. It is indeed a blessing to miss him so. And I completely agree that it was not how it was meant to be! Our Father’s heart is for us to live forever in perfect relationship with him! That will be so wonderful and eons better than this life. But here and now, we have to grieve and hurt, and long for our heavenly home.
    Happy anniversary.

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